I have yet to know who i am
but i know exactly who i'm not
im not a superficial hypocrite,
nor am i a disguised saint,
or a rotten apple,maggoty at the core,
candied on the outside.
I do not thrive on delusions of grandeur
and I know I ll never be that extra load in my own house.

this blog is shutting down cos I' m sick of some lifeless rat who thinks of me as nothing more than some stupid joke.
well, you know how the saying goes: Make sure your own hands are clean before you start pointing fingers.

Watever List

1. Learn to pray 5 times daily
   
2. Practice maths daily
3. Start Stats tuition
4. Finish off Elven Blood
5. Faking calligraphy for cousin's wedding invitation cards
6. Save cash
7. New reading list
8. Read the Surah-al-yaasin daily
9. Pray for good results
10. less facebook
11. More daily inspiration through art/design blogs
12. Learn to cook real,edible food
13. Less sleep
14. Less talk
15. Less criticism
16. less of judging people so fast
17. smile more
18. laugh more
19. more comedies,less soppy movies
20. less expectations on life
    
21. Maintain clear skin
22. get over fiasco
23. less emission of hate waves
24. Plan for new room deco
25. get a book shelf-a large one
    
26. be happy
27. get fit,more strength exercises
    
28. less racism
    
29. recycle more
30. get into medical school
31. without cheating
32. look for new house
    
33. teach bro maths
34. gain better knowledge of Islam
    
35. less grimace
    
36. Love life.
    

!sugar shock!

Luisa Beccaria's new collection for 2009 swept me off my feet with their overly irresistible girlish charm. And I adore the color palette!! the dresses are pretty,no?

joy

Happiness is that sense of warmth that begins at the core of the soul, spreads to the heart, and radiates outward from the eyes and lips of those who know it. The gift of happiness is elusive, but tangible.

You don't find happiness, you make happiness.

Recently, a person I know made a list of all the things that bring her happiness. So I thought I should make one too. Here it is:

• Creating crafts for loved ones.
• Painting from imagination
• Getting inspired through art
• meeting a long lost friend
• sketching a portrait of a person I’m talking to
• waking up to flawless skin
• receiving a sincere compliment
• a goodnight message from loved one
• Finding a readable blog
• Wearing a peachy blush
• Dancing in the privacy of my own room
• Having my sense of humor appreciated
• Watching a chic lit movie with a awesome wardrobe
• Finishing a very engaging novel
• Waking up in the afternoon
• Finishing a semester
• Fridays
• Last day of exams
• Tom Kha soup(a milky tom yum)
• Design blogs
• Discovering something quirky about a person
• Victory in an argument
• Forgiving
• Comedies
• Happy Endings
• Dreaming about my wedding(if I even get to have one)
• An lazy afternoon nap
• Meeting someone with the similar taste
• Dressing up for a big event
• Rainy days with non-stop texting
• Remembering the innocent, pure joy of my first romance
• Driving at high speed in an empty highway
• Discover that I wore it before it became a trend
• Nude lipstick
• Vintage ads
• Having the most wonderful caring mother in the world
• Gaining independence
• Planning my room deco
• Getting immersed in an ikea catalog
• Visiting ikea with mum and discussing ideas
• Wearing pearls and diamonds
• Finding something dirt cheap that looks like a thousand bucks
• Donating cash/clothes/etc for under privileged children
• Eating pizza with extra tomato sauce and chilli flakes
• Hot and spicy chicken wings
• Feeling grateful for the people in my life right now
• Wearing big bold flowery prints
• Reading poetry
• Making an A grade
• Life-planning
• Polyvore
• Expressing my creativity to others
• Water fights during my childhood
• Snakes and ladders,checkers and old-maid too
• Remembering dying barbie’s hair pink in the sink with buncho paint.
• Contagious laughter
• Telling stories to my little cousins and having hem listen attentively
• Buying last month’s Vogue and Elle at half price
• Riding the swing till its half way up
• Hearing a song that suit my moods
• Reminiscing digging out kittens from their tunnels and waiting for hours till they come out
• Having the cat/kitten recognize me and get familiar with me
• Choosing at the same things coincidentally with my cousin
• Gold eye shadow and falsies
• Hearing a corny old song that I haven’t heard for ages.
• Have someone come to me during their hard times
• Giving advice to troubled souls-haha
• Intimidating your ex’s new gf (it hasn’t happened)
• when I pray for justice
• biking with my sis around the campus
• baking a good cake with pretty icing
• have my paintings hung up on the walls of the living room
• making funny faces
• saving up my own money and spending it
• just saving for a raining day
• having someone accept me for the disaster I am
• sitting in a café, just blabbering on for hours with an old friend
• shopping alone
• creating a new facebook photo album
• buying fresh flowers and arranging them in a pretty vase
• a buffet dinner at a lush hotel after starving for the whole day

Is this the New Year or just another night?
Is this the new fear or just another fright?
Is this the new tear or just another desperation?
Is this what they call freedom?

Is this what you call pain?
Is this what they call discontented fame?
You're pushing till you're shoving
You bend until you break

1920s in high definition

I have this thing for vintage photographs and when i stumbled on these lovely black-n-white photographs of stores and services taken during the 20s,I was more than thrilled!

These pictures are in courtesy of shorpy photographs.

Falsies Fanatism

Since my early teen years, I've always been fascinated by "luscious,thick and never ending" lashes that falsies claim to create. During my high school graduation, i tried to put on some that i bought from Sasa and boy,it itched like crazy. My eyes started watering and swollen and i looked as pathetic as ever,with half the false lash hanging down the middle. Ever since, i vowed never to attempt such narcisstic approahes to looking good.
Or maybe my application was just wrong.The Shu Uemura lashes are quite extensive in its range,from naturel to dramatic to quirky. The ones from MAC are caters to a lot more styles.They even have one called Hello Kitty. And better yet,I discovered "flare" lashes,available at the MAC and Shu Uemura lash bars.
These lashes are separated and in single strands,making them easier to apply. I hope. My cousin's wedding is just around the corner and I'm a bridesmaid! And simply can't wait to wear some flares!

as D-day approaches..

Soothing Words...

IF by Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream--and not make dreams your master,
If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings--nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And--which is more--you'll be a Man, my son!

best bitch ever!

Gossip Girl is the only show that I have yet to fail downloading each and every week. I owe it all to the infamous Ms Waldorf! She is the epitome of whatever a villain must have in order to capture the viewer's interest. She is beautiful yet flawed, vengeful but sensible and not to mention her exquisite wardrobe to die for. Its like another character thats etched in my mind. And Leighton Meester plays Blair just so flawlessly. And i dig her style!!





I wish i could at least learn to like Serena just a teeny weeny bit but then again,i guess she just isn't my type of girl. And I still don't get the hype the media raves about Blake Lively.

the very exciting intro

Well,apparently I lied when i said that I'll never open a blog coz here I am! there are just so much ideas and thoughts and bizarreness conjured up in my mind that I simply think its such a waste to not write them down and show it off! Pardon my lack of tact sometimes,i warn you.

So you should know,I'm a visual spatial(quiz taken in college) but so far,i have yet to achieve anything i have ever wanted. Pursuing A levels science is very tormenting and its time i finally stretch out to others who may have yet to see the real me. I've been a surfing design blogs since way back when,and many,many of them have greatly inspired me. like serious inspiration. If possible i'd rather be an interior designer or any form of designer but then again..the great ambition of fulfilling my parents' dreams counteracts my own desires.
My blog will be updated only when i feel like it. It all depends on my moods.
Plus,i have a penchant for being lazy to extremes.
xoxo,Selma